Nadya Suleman Admits To Being Childish, Selfish In Her Decisions
April 20, 2010
According to Suleman, she now realizes that her reasons for implanting all of the embryos into her uterus were highly selfish and childish, stemming from a desire for a large family, a fear of a connection with someone who wasn’t her child, and other factors.
“You can’t regret children, but my choices were childish, immature and selfish. I wasn’t thinking at that time,” she said during the show, which Oprah confirms she was not paid for.
She has also denied that she did it for the fame, and says that any media circuit she has gone through has been for a good reason.
“I did it because there were 14 hungry mouths. I own full responsibility for providing for my children. We have some of that money left until I figure out another way to make ends meet,” she said, speaking about a $100,000 photoshoot she did of her post-baby body with Star magazine.
“I was ashamed of that — that’s not my character — but I felt as though I needed to do something.”
Suleman has spoken about the struggles of every day life with eight babies and three older children.
“[I live] every single day, every hour of the day, with a tremendous amount of guilt. I feel guilty when I look at the older ones, they all have different unique needs. I feel guilty when I’m holding one or two and I can’t be there for the others when they’re crying.”
But above it all, she contests the idea that she did it on purpose for money or the spotlight.
“I’m not a celebrity. I’m a pseudo-celebrity catapulted into this media mess. Was I in denial thinking it wouldn’t happen? Yeah. Did I want it? No.”